Beyond All Reason

Monday, June 23, 2008

Personal & Civic Responsibility

If the editor and author — a black man (Obama) and a woman (Robin West) — were an unconventional team for the Review, however, West's article challenged the then-prevailing wisdom in a different way, taking as its touchstone the work of Czech freedom fighter Vaclav Havel and the anti-Communist revolutions in Eastern Europe that were then still under way. Havel had written that the citizen’s sense of responsibility — not just of individual rights — was essential to political liberty, and West applied that critique to contemporary liberalism to argue that goals such as tolerance and diversity might in fact be "weakened, not strengthened, by taking rights so 'super-seriously' that we come to stop examining our sense of responsibility." ~ Jeffrey Ressner & Ben Smith (from Obama Kept Law Review Balanced http://www.politico.com/news/stories/0608/11257.html)

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Killdeer Update

This morning I was surprised to find an empty nest and no sign of the third remaining unhatched egg. This discovery could mean two things. 1) that the third baby had hatched successfully and the entire family was afoot somewhere on the property, or 2)a cat or large bird had eaten the entire nestful of babies. I searched for feathers but, mysteriously, only found the grey feathers of another type of bird. I looked for the Killdeer parents and observed them still hovering around the nest but with a different, less frantic behavior. I hoped for the best and went inside to eat breakfast.

About two hours later I took Chai out to potty him in the front yard. Chai loves to lie in the soft grass under the apple tree and eat fallen apples. As usual, he led me to his favorite spot. I glanced over at the waste water draining off our backyard as I waited for Chai to finish his apple. Our lawn maintance guy had scolded me about this water waste. While contemplating ways we could stem the runoff, I noticed the Killdeer parents feeding in the watery area. Suddenly, I saw two small birds running around in the water near the Killdeer. They had to be the babies. Just then Mama Killdeer spotted me and sounded her familiar, piercing alarm. The babies froze. I decided I had pestered these birds long enough and should leave the brood alone. While I didn't see the third baby, I'm assuming it hatched and is also out in the pasture with the Killdeer family. Phew! What a relief to know the babies have lived through the first vulnerable period of their lives.

Blessings on all creatures great and small. The Lord God made us all.

The Faithful Killdeers

We have a Killdeer family living in our front yard. At least I figured out what kind of birds there were today by using an egg identification site on the internet. Before today, I just knew them as the very vocal, dramatic and loyal parents of a nest of four plain, gray, speckled eggs. As all Killdeer do, they had laid the eggs out in an open rocky section of the lawn with no protection. I figured a month ago they must have eggs when they frantically began acting as if their wings were broken every time I walked one of the dogs near that section of the yard. In an effort to avoid squashing their eggs I scouted out the nest. It was effectively camouflaged.

Since that time we have tried to steward this precarious, birdly attempt at parenthood. But yesterday I didn't make it out fast enough to warn the lawn care guys to avoid mowing in the far left side of the yard. When I finally hear the mower, I made a mad dash out the door, pajamed and hair in a crazy snarl, to tell them to be careful. But they had already mowed right over the nest. As we all peered down at the four eggs to assess the damage, the guys expressed regret and hoped all would be well. Though it was evident the nest had been disturbed, there did not seem to be more damage than a few small cracks in two eggs.

Heart sick we patrolled the nest the rest of the day. This patrolling was done much to the dismay of the harried parents. However, late in the afternoon, it became apparent the cracks we had observed earlier might be due to imminent hatching rather than lawn mower damage. Large sections of the two eggs had started to flake off. Both eggs were gently rocking. I left them that night with the hopes there would be hatchlings in the morning.

Morning came and, to my dismay, the two eggs had not hatched. Worse still, the inner membranes had started to dry out. That's when I got online to see if this was the way Killdeer hatched. Of course there were no intimate details about the hatching process. But I did learn the newborns were rather helpless the first day and then generally begin running around by the second day.

I faced a dilemma. Should I interfere with a natural process or should I wait to see if the chicks hatched or not? Would too much interference on my part cause the parents to abandon the nest? I decided to let nature take it's course and took one the dogs to the vet to have a foxtail removed from his ear. Since he'd been limping lately, we also ended up having an x-ray taken of his front paws. Sadly, we discovered his wrist bones were compressed and he had a fracture in one of them. Because the bones showed signs of mild arthritis the vet suspected the fracture had occurred earlier. So. it's bed rest and glucosamine for Chaiboy.

On with our story. After an eventful morning, I came home to began preparations for my afternoon theater class. Shortly before I was supposed to be at the class, I began to have a nagging feeling I need to help the baby Killdeers. I went out to the nest and the egg membranes seemed too dry. A tiny beak was protruding through the end of each egg. There was no movement. I quickly snatched up the eggs despite the parent's protests and ran into the house. Using tweezers, I gently pried of the pieces of remaining shell. About halfway through the process I heard a "cheep" and the first baby began to move. As soon as it was free from the shell, it remained in the position it had been in for so many weeks. I wondered if, indeed, it had hatched too soon. I was alarmed to see a nutritional sack still attached to it's abdomen. However, the hatchling soon stretched out to it's rather startling full size and began to move. I set it in a bowl and started opening the second egg. This time I was too late. The second baby had already died.

What would I do with this live baby? Several scenarios ran through my mind. Meanwhile, time was racing and I needed to get to my theater class. Since I had no way of incubating the baby, I decided to put it back in the nest with it's mom and then check on it later. Mom seemed very happy to find a chick in her nest.

Apparently, Killdeer clutches hatch completely within two to three days. Sure enough, after I was done teaching, I checked on the nest again and another egg has lost part of it's shell. Rationalizing the baby might meet the same fate and night was fast approaching, I grabbed the newly hatching egg and ran with it into the house. The Killdeer followed and flew at the front door while I removed the shell from their young one. This time the membrane was moist and when I tore it open I saw blood seeping out. Not sure if the egg was normal I almost stopped. But something told me to keep going and within a minute I heard a "cheep". Apparently the other eggs had been so dried the normal placenta surrounding the chick had also dried. After cleaning this chick up I ran it back out to the nest much to the parent's relief.

It's interesting because I don't know if I did the right thing. I don't know if these birds will be too weak to survive or if they hatched early because of damage to their eggs. I've been wondering the whole time why I did this. Maybe what I told the lawn care guys explains it. I remember saying, "I sure hope these babies hatch because the parents have been so faithful and are willing to risk their lives trying hard to protect them". I do hope these babies live, for their parent's sake. Yes, Killdeers are a little crazy. Even though they lay eggs in odd places, like driveways and busy walkways, they sure know how to be good parents.

For more on Killdeer: http://www.birdwatching.com/stories/killdeer.html

Monday, June 16, 2008

Living Life

You must be the change you wish to see in the world. ~Mohandas Gandhi

With the death of 58 year old Tim Russert it becomes apparent that one's passion for a vocation must be tempered by caring for one's body. This runs contrary to our national model for success. The good student, the star teacher, the great secretary and the employee of the year always seem to be the ones who work themselve into the ground with little sleep, suffer from poor nutrition, sacrifice their family duties and only have time to nervously squeeze in a little guilty personal time.

In my case, I remember a public school principal telling me two years ago that most successful teachers sacrificed most of their personal life to attend to preparation, teaching duties, parent education and a myriad of school activities. That was the kind of employee he was looking for. Thank heavens I've been able to work for a charter school in which most of the employees leave school at a reasonable hour, don't work on weekends and actually value personal health, free time and holidays with their families. Health and peace of mind! What a concept.

It seems to me it kind of became an American religious ethic in the early days of this country to work yourself into the ground with little care for earthly existance, health or personal enjoyment. It is commendable to want to work hard and well, but I don't think Jesus was teaching that one should forsake one's health and family and forfeit any enjoyment of this beautiful world. (Interestingly, Buddha's moment of enlightenment was that one should follow the "middle path" of moderation in all things including self-care) Yet, young people now-a-days have translated the old time American work ethic into rationalizing working long hours for the money needed to become upwardly mobile (the key to "success") and give their kids and themselves the cool "toys" and all the "stuff" advertisers encourage them to consume. So now we still work too hard, but we do it so we can pay the high costs of living the American Dream and consuming more stuff.

Maybe we should consider the price we pay in health, and how much family time we miss, when we work too hard. Maybe we need to downsize so we can have the time to really relax, smell the roses, play with our kids and seek peace of mind, heart and soul. Maybe that kind of Life is the real success story.

Rest in peace Tim!

Sunday, June 08, 2008

One Historic Night, Two Americas

By Frank Rich

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/06/08/opinion/08rich.html?th&emc=th

Really Interesting article.

The nomination of Barack Obama was truly a historic moment. I am glad I witnessed evidence of a critical, pivotal change of consciousness in this country.

Obama 2008

Monday, June 02, 2008

The Monkey Mind

Once again I've experienced moments of lucidity courtesy of the delirium of sickness. This time, my first case of pneumonia revealed a mind that is way too active and full of random images I wish I didn't have to see played over and over and over when I have a fever. It took an entire day of patiently waiting for the jumble of images leaping around inside my head to take some coherent shape. As I endured forced bed rest, the analytical wheels also eventually slowed to a more pastoral, Austinian pace.

I say Austinian because I've always been fascinated by Jane Austin novels in which financially secure, female characters spend most of their time propped in bed for several weeks with a cold after trudging through the rain to meet an eligible bachelor. Throughout the story, these matrimonially obsessed 20 somethings are either on extended bed rest or attending to toiletries and dressing their hair for dinner or grand balls at a more well-heeled relative's estate. It's fascinating such trivialities could absorb whole days and weeks? Austin's ironic, social commentary does suggest lounging, self-care and social events were the primary occupations of aristocratic women of her era; occupations they were loath to surrender. I acknowledge the allure. It would be a very restful existence. But happily or not, I don't have to struggle with such questions for I am not an aristocrat, nor is my illness the result of some romantic conspiracy. No, I'm one of the working poor (I would have been a housemaid or tutor in that day) and my illness is the result of foolishly running around in sandals and summer clothes during a cold spell when my immunity was compromised by exhaustion and stress.

Evidence abounds of a bad case of Monkey Mind, and so, back to the point.

When the doctor's main prescription Sunday was "I suggest you rest and go get counseling" I had to pause and ask myself, "WHY have I been working four jobs at one time and HOW can I find a way to quiet my mind and design a more wellness centered existence that allows me room for creativity and true relaxation?"

It is an interesting coincidence this epiphany has occurred as our economy teeters on the edge of possible depression. Hmmm? Another BIG "What is God teaching me?" moment.

Maybe God is teaching me to Live in the moment, relax and trust in Him.